Monday, 17 January 2011


Happy day today. Just got my 19" monitor come through and can now use all view ports in Max without squinting like a mole with an energy saving lightbubble.
Also just found out there are some really good 3D tutorials on the .net and my project doesnt have to be in by Feb 14th- Ah say, Whoot! More time to practice. This van is going to look as everyone elses.

Apparantley we can pimp it out as well. Does Pimp My Ride count as study then?

Saturday, 15 January 2011

Hold the phone...

I just realised something that stopped my mind jackknifing like a lepers hand at the scent of left overs.

I've been thinking about this all the wrong way (btw I dont really know where I was going with that leper joke), whenever I talk about not being nearly good enough etc etc it's ALWAYS in reference to 2D. Never 3D. The reason for that was because I couldn't give a rats fart about 3D however now I've had a change of personality (likely schitzophrenia) since then and have began to like it.

Now that's not the point, the point is that I've prioritised 2D and not given any pause of thought to 3D... which is the focus of this course and ultimatley my ticket into a job. Of course I need to have a grandiose knowledge of the fundamentals and an understanding of anatomy that'd make Da'Vinci blush, but 3D is still the main focus.

At any rate, I'm not going to slack off on my 2D; just going to let it run it's course. 3D is why I'm here. You don't need to go to uni to put a pencil to a page... spose you don't really need to go to uni to watch tutorials from Youtube on 3DS Max either. Well atleast it gives me the time to practice these things without the burden of a full-time job. Nope, just the burden of 20,000 pounds of debt.

Aim higher... should be called aim lower, you know? As in my nuts!

Ah na, I'm enjoying myself really.

We're gona need a bigger boat...

Or atleast more time. I'm feeling pretty overwhelmed by the sheer amount of work I have to do before I'm at industry standard to be honest. Looking at some of the second year's work and knowing that I won't be that good when I'm in second year. It's pretty crushing.

Trying to keep this stiff-upper-lip attitude towards drawing, thinking of this as nothing more than the learning process and that it doesnt matter, is not helping.

It's not that I think I'll fail the course, on the contrary, I'm confident I can pass it. That's not what's bothering me. It's what comes AFTER the course, the rat race. How am I going to get a job competing against just the people on my course? Let alone the rest of the world.

I need more time.

Day #1 15/01/2010

First day of my own work structure and it went alright. Managed to do a simple water colour, a still life as well as the blog entry.

Altogether not too amazed by the work yet it was all worth while.

Gona try uploading pictures some time.

Friday, 14 January 2011

New Years Work Plan.

Ok, so I said I'd work harder this year as my resolution and though that's not wrong, I have been working harder, just not hard enough.
I've been trying to draw something every day, getting bored of one drawing and moving onto the next through two hours. As for 3D it's really not gotten anywhere. Did some self-directed personal work the other day which I was surprised I could spend three hours on 3D and actually enjoy it. What were the seven signs of the apocalypse?

Though ultimatley working harder, as stated above, I feel I havn't worked hard enough and the reason for this I feel is: no structure. I seem to wake up one morning and say 'hmm, I really need to do some drawing today.' Then spend the rest of the day assuming I'll get to it ending up going to bed surprised I didn't. Something's up there.

So now I'm not necessarily planning my days individually; planning every detail. Instead, I've just constructed a brief list of things I will do EVERY day... and you will, won't you Scott?! Hmmmm? Yeah, that's what I thought.
So the very brief list is:
- 1x Watercolour painting
- 1x Page of drawing in A3 sketchbook from stilllife.
- 1x 3D asset in 3DS Max.
- 1x Blog entry.

Now this is all relative to my skill so I won't be painting amazing watercolour paintings, nor will I be creating vehicles or people in 3D, just simple assets. On top of that this is just the minimum so there should be room for more work if I feel so inclined... which you will, won't you Scott? Hmmm, damn right.

As for the blog entry I'm feeling a little... meh, about this one. Not that I don't want to write in my blog, just 1 blog entry a day might be a tad much. It'll be too much like twitter. At any rate my idea was to upload all the work I do on that day to my blog so I keep myself working as all the work I do in that day will be on display. Therefore a poor amount of work, or even none (Don't you dare!) would look terrible. On a side note it might even improve my writing skills which is something I actually happen to care a lot about. I've not written much so naturally it's not too brilliant.

There are other things I really want to be able to do and like drawing, painting and 3D I have a problem with concentration and motivation due to the scope between my skill and where I want to be. Like Mandarin for example. I bought a beginner's book several months back and have barely studied it. I planned to learn so much at Uni however it's so much work. As the saying goes: all work and no play makes Jack a dull boy. I want to wake up every morning and be able to look forward to the work instead of waking up yet too crushed to get out of bed by the impending work load with no fun involved. Howbeit if I want to be a game artist any time not drawing/painting/3D is just adding more time between me and the job of my dreams.

It's odd how I don't see drawing as entertainment and something worthwhile for a break. Probably due to 100% chance of frustration.

Grrrrrrr. I'm a tiger.